Saturday, March 26, 2005

This is me for real

whay should I believe? I cannot even sleep well. These weird dreams pop up into my mind at night and wont let me rest. I am not denying that there is someone up there that is watching down on earth. what I am saying is that that someone is not looking at me. Maybe I was not created for that purpose.
When people talk about hell, and that means to live separate from God for all eternity...I think that that is freaking hilareous! for me hell is here on earth. Each and every day is living in hell for me, waiting for a healing that may never come, longing to be accepted for God or for people who may not care about me.
This is so funny! what do you want from me?? I have nothing . I am not worthy, no matter what you say... I have run out of everything..
I am tired!

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