Here I am, its almost one a.m. and I feel like being up the whole nite.
The thing is that I was on my bed reading and translating something for a friend of mine with the idea that eventually I would fall asleep but it didnt happen.So I got up and here we go...
Today, I got to make an important decision. Some people would say new resolution.
Today, I got to close my heart again,like it used to be when I was not a Christian. I think that pouring out my heart was one of the biggest mistakes ever.
I should have kept it that way for ever. Not matter what some people say (sorry JS!).
Sometimes its better that way. When you open up your heart that makes you weak, vulnerable...so freaking stupid.
What's with sharing burdens? does it make any difference? maybe, but 99.99% is useless. There are tons of things happening in our lives but HEY! wake up! Thats our life and we have to deal with it,dont We?
Dont get me wrong! I am a Christian and I know that the only who can help me in my distress is God...the rest...is bs,but what's with telling stuff to people about us...will anything change in our real world? I dont think so.
And so far, I keep sinning b/c deep inside I know I am still taking control of my life and trying to solve my problems by myself.
I know what you're thinking right now: Fabian, if sharing burdens is meanigless, Why are you blogging?
Right! Thats the point, d'you remember my first blog? "who do we write for?" well, I think we write for ourselves, to say things that we woundnt say to ourselves otherwise...unless, you enjoy talking about the weather or how confused you are for not being able to choose between wearing a t-shirt or a shirt to go out for dinner!
Anyway, I feel I have let people know a lot about me,this is the exact time to shut my pie hole.
so, I guess from now on...I will love talking about trivial facts.
hey, welcome me to the club...this is hilarious!
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