Psalm 119:11

I think that God is teaching me way too much lately. My stupid brain is
too slow to process all the information though.
I feel like I am all the time complainig about this and that,
when in fact I should be celebrating the fact that Jesus died for me,
and He did that because His Father loved me so much that
He sent His only begotten Son to die for my retarded stupid past,
present and future sins.
So...have I mentioned this in the past days,weeks, months or years?
NO! I haven't!
Have I gotten my butt out of the apartment and done somthing about it??
NO! I haven't!
Also, I should be more than happy for having been chosen...
If God chose me as one of his children...well, what else do I need?
my mind wanders all the time and you know why...
cuz I am the biggest a..... in the whole world. Focusing on stuff or people that either dont deserve my attention or are nothing compare to the love of God.
Shame on me! Shame on me!
If the time I spend in the word is not enough,then I should do better.
Psalm 119.11
Conclusion, its not the people around me...its ME who screw it up all the time.