All I meant was that
I want God to have the place in my life
I don’t allow Him to have.

I need you desperately.
I can’t make it without you.
I want it to hurt when you are not with me.
I want to feel sad when you are not around.
I want to lose sleep because I didn’t talk to you.
I want to get back home as soon as I can so that I can learn more from you.
I want to long for five minutes with you.
I want to hug you longer than a minute.
I want to have a “café con leche” and “medialunas” with you every morning.
I want to buy you a present.
I want you to wear my clothes and I want to wear yours.
I want to take pictures of you and I want you to be in my pictures.
I want to download songs for you.
I want to go to the movies with you and after the movies; I want us to go for dinner to “Pizza 49”.
I want to call you on the phone and talk about random stuff.
I want to chat online with you and laugh my head off.
I want to be frustrated when I don’t get to spend time with you.
I want to cook for you and with you.
I want to protect you with my life.
I want to serve you in every way I can.
I want you to be my partner when I go running.
I don’t want to lie to you because I know it hurts.
I want you to be the light of my days, the song on the radio, the air that flows free through my lungs, the food that I have everyday.
I want you to be the path that will lead me…
I want to be more like you and less than me.

Freaking idiot!

I just figured it out! Everything was based on a guilty response attitude.

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